the Lodown

My thesis workshop is on the 7th. My birthday is on the 7th. My Philo midterms might be on the 7th. Who says the number 7 is lucky? With the way things are going, I won't be surprised if I have 7 major submissions on the 7th. Damn it. The holidays on the 20th and the 27th better better better be enough.

Oh. And have I mentioned the immersion I have to go to? I must go to Bataan and be one with the FISHerfolk. Yes. Swim with the fish? I hate toe-biting, flesh eating swimming monsters. So bad for them. I know I'm tasty and all considering the amount of Kikkoman I have every day of the year but come on. The sea is saltier. One thing's definitely for sure na. It's going to be one hell of an ALAT weekend. Hay.

Only good thing is that Hasya is arriving soon. Oh. And if Chess agrees, a session of ***** **********. Haha. Sorry, kiddies. This is for grown ups. Rated R sya. Some people might get offended ehhhh. Diba, Chess? Matthew's birthday this Saturday. Hmmmm. I lost five pounds. Fifteen more to go before I can start dressing like a skank again. Hahaha. Kidding!!!! Kidding. Geez.

I love James Franco. So dreamy.

Male Jenny

he calls me baby
then he wont call me
says he adores me
and then ignores me
XXX, What's the problem?

he keeps his distance
and sits on fences
puts up resistance
and builds defenses
XXX, Whats the problem?

You keep me hanging on the line
everytime you change your mind

First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
XXX,you've got me on my knees
XXX, It's killing me

he needs his own space
he's playing mind games
ends up at my place
saying that he's changed
(XXX, what's the problem?)

I'm trying to read between the lines
you got me going out of my mind

First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
XXX, you've got me on my knees
XXX, It's killing me


It's killing me

It's killing me

XXX

First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
XXX, you've got me on my knees
XXX, It's killing me

First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
XXX, you've got me on my knees
XXX, It's killing me

It's killing me

XXX

Yoyo Ma

Dahil nanood ako ng Pilipinas Game Ka Na Ba kaninang umaga, nabigyan ako ng inspirasyon na magsulat gamit ang sariling wika. Kaninang tanghali, ang aking nakababatang kapatid na nag-aaral sa Estados Unidos ay nanuod ng TV. Dahil sawa na sya sa mga programang banyaga, wala syang pinapanuod ngayon kundi mga palabas na lokal.
Nung nakita ko si Edu Manzano, doon ko lang nalaman na laos na pala sya. Sino ba naman ang papayag na maging anawnser o host sa ganung klaseng palabas at pumapayag pang sumayaw minsan minsan sa programa? Kawawa namang Edu.
Isa sa mga tanong kanina ay ano ang mga salitang kaparehas ng kahulugan sa salitang "TAMA." At ako, sa kabobohan ko'y walang naisip. Yung babaeng nakasagot ay nagbigay ng salitang "WASTO." Tama! At doon ko lang natandaan ang salitang iyon. Iwawasto ko ang inyong mga papel. Winasto ni: Atchoo. Oo nga naman. Corrected by. I will check your papers. Wala lang.

It's just sad that we're no longer able to recall words we used to know a long time ago in a jiffy. I mean, I know what wasto means. Well, I SORT of know what it means. Whatevs.


I just want to say, how do you describe Bach's Cello Suite No. 1? Or Chopin's Piano Concerto No.1 Op.11 E Minor 2nd Mvt Romanza? I mean, how do you put the music into words? Do you just write down the notes and let the reader see for himself? What if the reader doesn't know how to read notes or isn't that good of a musical person to recognize a masterpiece without hearing it first? Such questions are bothering me right now. How the hell do you describe music??? Hay.

Your Pimp Name Is...

Ms. Tease

What's Your Pimp Name?

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Gravity

Gravity is working against me


And gravity wants to bring me


down

Oh I'll never know what makes this man
With all the love that his heart can stand
Dream of ways to throw it all away

Oh Gravity

is working against me


And gravity


wants to bring me down



Oh twice as much aint twice as good
And can't sustain like a one half could
It's wanting more
That's gonna send me to my knees


Oh gravity,



stay the hell away from me


And gravity has taken better men than me



Now how can that be?

Just keep me where the light is



Just keep me where the light is



Keep you all where the light is



Just keep us where the light is



Oh, where the light is

Take heart!

I am cutting class tomorrow so that I can make primp up for the photoshoot. Hehe. Vanity is truly a sin. Ever seen Devil's Advocate? Yes. I love Keanu!!!!!

Harry Potter 5 sucked ass. The only cool scene was the fighting scene with the power balls. Dumbledore throwing an energy ball at Voldemort and Voldemort absorbing the ball , controlling it and throwing it back to Dumbledore!! Seriously. Even the scenery wasn't that good. Does anyone remember the 3rd movie? That Scottish lake? Hello? Cho Chang is so ugleh. Man, how can Harry Potter like someone like her? Talk about the Oriental rage. Apparently, whites/caucasians have a thing for Asians these days. If you're white and you have an asian partner, you're cool and hip and in. Whatever!

Ate lunch with the Logkada yesterday at Pasto. Keken, VaNeale, Aidz and Ives. Yep. The thing after got cancelled cause everyone made plans na pala. So Sad. Yes. With a capital S. Headed over to my stylist to get a haircut. Went to Greenbelt after, had oysters and fish with Chess and then watched the horrible so not worth it movie, Harry Potter 5. Luna Lovegood looks like a survivor from Village of the Damned starring Kirstie Alley and Christopher Reeve. Ugh. The last movie Superman made before he got paralyzed. So Sad. Capital S ulit. Freaky hair. Hehe.

Hasya is coming home August 3, Friday!!! Yay! I can't wait. She's actually going to be here for my 21st birthday.

The corny Harry Potter 5 speeches keep intruding my thoughts. Yak. Haha. The power of love and friendship is sooo overrated. Seriously.




Is someone bitter here?

thesis = no social life

I have to submit a ten page paper tomorrow for my thesis class. I swear to God there's something wrong with my room. I saw an ipis yesterday. I tried to kill it but I was so grossed out I just took the dog with me and stayed on top of my bed. Yes. I let the damn cockroach be. I had the room fumigated today with BAYGON and it now stinks like ass. Am I getting high or something??? Cause I feel a bit woozy and I did not have rum tonight.

And no, Chess. I don't drink every night.

I'm so not used to this. Why couldn't thesis writing be by pair or something? The self-discipline needed in writing a good paper is something I don't really have right now probably because HEROES season 1 is staring me at the face. At the same time, I bought some dibidis that's prolly gonna last till August. Yes. I have no time for TV during the weekdays.

For one of my classes, I'm supposed to have read the whole RAMAYANA text by tonight for the quiz tomorrow. There are six books, each book containing roughly around 70 chapters each. I just want to roll over and die like my dog. When's all this going to end?

Aside from that, I just broke my no rice rule and ate carbs. Yep. After Three days of dieting. Damn it!!! I so do not want my face to look like a siopao for the photo shoot. Boo hoo.

I want my slims.


school life sucks. can't wait to get out. and when i do, i get to bum for at least five months.

Ten Reasons Why I Should Have Stayed in Management

1. More airconditioned Management classrooms
2. Easier papers and reports
3. Cute guys
4. Everyone I know is in Management anyway.
5. They have their own friggin' "mall."
6. Less "deep" and philosophical. Hehe. This is mean.
7. Better job opportunities
8. Less readings
9. More classes with Euge, Ken and Kimi.
10. PHOTOSHOOT FOR YEARBOOK IS AT AUGUST PA. NOT JULY. damn it.


Now tell me what the hell I'm doing here!!!!


My dog just shat, damn it. Must clean.

I Got Me Some Shia. How bout you?

I am online doing nothing.

Actually, I'm printing the first few chapters of Book One of the Ramayana even though I actually need the Six Books for later. Printing is actually expensive if you think about it. You waste so much time waiting for it to finish and end up surfing the net checking out things you're not supposed to be doing at the moment.

I can't believe Fely and I did the same thing to Chess! Hahaha. Great men think alike? Well, I got me some Shia LaBeouf last Wednesday and I am happy. Josh Duhamel pa. Since Euge doesn't want to watch Die Hard this afternoon, I will go to Metrowalk instead and buy old movies. Whatta loser.

Had a weird conversation last night. It's best not to mention who the person was but man oh man. People are definitely asking around about our friendly neighborhood spider, if you know what I mean. Such sad sad lives.

I lost 2 pounds! Must lose 10 pounds by July 16!!! Grad pic, taena mo! Ang panget ng sched ko. Stupid scheduling.


Was watching MTV. What the hell is tuliro???? Spongecola, ang deep naman.

Teenagers

They're gonna clean up your looks
With all the lies in the books
To make a citizen out of you
Because they sleep with a gun
And keep an eye on you, son
So they can watch all the things you do

Because the drugs never work
They gonna give you a smirk
'Cause they got methods of keeping you clean
They gonna rip up your heads,
Your aspirations to shreds
Another cog in the murder machine

They say that teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone will bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

The boys and girls in the clique
The awful names that they stick
You're never gonna fit in much, kid
But if you're troubled and hurt
What you got under your shirt
We'll make them pay for the things that they did

They say that teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone will bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me


They say that teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone will bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me



Teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone will bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

What I've Done

In this farewell
There’s no blood
There’s no alibi
‘Cause I’ve drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousand lies

So let mercy come
And wash away

What I’ve done


I’ve faced myself
To cross out what I’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of what I’ve done

Put to rest
What you thought of me
Well I cleaned this slate
With the hands
Of uncertainty

So let mercy come
And wash away

What I’ve done

I’ve faced myself
To cross out what I’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of what I’ve done

For what I’ve done
I’ll start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I’m forgiving what I’ve done

I’ve faced myself




To cross out what I’ve become




Erase myself



And let go of what I’ve done


What I’ve done



Forgiving what I’ve done